the answer was quite simple. he got a ‘hi’ back and messages started going around. after a while they decided they were ready for a step further: conversation on msn! the first conversation went better then he expected and it got very deep and involving. after the three hour conversation, he realized something was wrong or at least different. next step: he dumped all his affair on ‘on hold’ status and decided to focus.

the conversation got a bit deeper and the next step was taken: long e-mails! they never thought how people could actually talk over e-mails but each e-mail brought some light to the whole story. of course something was missing. messages over the net and profile pictures weren’t enough to figure someone out completely. so then one essential decision: move on to skype conferencing. and that changed the story. for the worse? not at all!

the tickets for this far away city were on sale and after a 10-hour-bus trip, our little friend thought had finally found his prince charming. he tried to keep cool and his feet on the ground but he couldn’t. feelings took over his mind and when he realized he was completely in love with someone he barely knew. he was aware of the risks but decided to give it a shot after all life’s full of some many unexpected happenings, right?

so then he decided to start looking for negative aspects about this mysterious guy who had completely taken over his heart. he asked the most embarrassing and hideous questions but always got the right answers. actually, they weren’t just right answers they were what he always wanted to hear from someone. all of a sudden control had been lost long ago and a dangerous path was lying in front of him. what was he supposed to do? he had no idea.

after endless and pointless thinking he decided to go through till the end. he knows there’s no way back but he’s gonna keep on trying to figure this whole thing out. how is he feeling? completely trapped! – ina good way!

yesterday i woke up as if i were somewhere different. you know when you have the impression the colors around you are brighter and that makes so much of a difference that you feel like you’re somewhere else? so then i decided to take a walk around my city and it felt good as it hadn’t for while ’cause i’ve been concentrating so much on work that i kinda forgot about my personal life.

and while i was walking yesterday in the middle of the squares and the streets i realized how important it is to give meaning to the meaningless things in life. how beautiful a sunset can be… how beautiful a simple smile can be… life can be so perfect and it only takes us to look deep into ourselves to find beauty and poetry everywhere.

i know i know. you’re getting sick with so much love and poetry all around. but it all happened because of the most honest words i could expect to hear. you see how much love can do to life? it’s frightening sometimes i have to admit but once it gets to you there’s no way out and you know what? why would you find a way out? being over heels is just one of the best feelings ever! so i’ve decided i’m gonna enjoy it as if i was gonna die tomorrow. where it’s taking me i really don’t know and i don’t really care!!!

you know what? it’s kinda ridiculous of me to come here and like talk to people as if somebody read my blog! lol

anyway… i’ve been away for a while but a lot has happened, believe me! i’ve changed. met new people. resumed old friendships. got a better job if we could say so… but i remember mentioning about falling in love, remember? well… i’ve just made a new discovery about myself: i do fall in love and i am in love!

i don’t think i should write down here everything about this recently-falling-in-love real details like names, places and so on. but i can say i’ve never felt something like this before. you may ask me if this is surprising and i would totally agree. surprising, exhilarating, mind blowing… so fucking good!

and since this has been the focus in my private life lately i decided to start a journal, but this time a real one. i don’t wanna forget things and feeling and then i’ve decided i’m gonna try to keep this as a personal journal so we can keep track of how i am developing. hope nobody gets lost on the way!

i gotta go now… gotta buy cigarettes and coffee… but i’ll be back… you’ll see!

x

centuries ago, greeks – who were considered to be very hot – had the ‘perfect’ looks for political or even war reasons, after all they needed to be ready all the time for an upcoming battle or something. but then the perfect body changed along with new trends and beliefs in society. however, the way you look wouldn’t be a discriminatory element when we’re talking about being part of a group. actually mind was really taken into consideration, making with the looks altogether what we could call identity.

times have changed and human body as well. now you gotta be muscly in order to prove how much of a man you are. thick and hard arms are extremely necessary if you wanna make your way through the working environment, love life and, most important, life in general!!! but since when have we become so concerned about how we looked instead of being worried about what we think?

maybe it’s something that happened when means of communication became so fast that there were actually fewer things to talk about since information could be accessed faster. and you well know hoe human behave when they got nothing to talk about, they simply start paying attention to silly things, who become more and more important with all the attention we pay them.

now i’m quite concerned! i don’t have what people call a perfect body. far from that! but will i always be like that or will i ever have a chance to be called perfect????

Ok, I know it can happen to anyone, but the most striking thing that happened in this story is that the guy made a website searching for his love! (http://www.nygirlofmydreams.com) And can you guess what happened?

Well, it turned out that a friend of the girl’s found the website and put them in touch. Now they’re getting to know each other and a wedding might be on the way! – hope the cake is good! haha

Moments like this make me hopeful when thinking of love…

Ok, I’m young and smart (that’s at least what I hear people saying about me!) but I got some memory problems, like I can’t remember what I had for breakfast yesterday or I can’t recall who I talked to this morning… does it really mean I’m losing it?

According to some researchers on the field, everybody’s got what is called ‘Selective Memory’. The name isn’t that appealing, but it’s like this: your brain receives and stores every single information you receive through your senses. This information is stored, but only what you decide is useful can be accessed. Smart, isn’t it? So, basically, I’ve always relied on this theory to explain why I’m so absent minded, and to be honest it was ok till I read this article!

Maybe I don’t have Alzheimer – and I truly hope so – but doesn’t selective memory look like a ‘smarter alzheimer’? And if this is true, isn’t it possible that maybe, in an advanced stage, it takes control of everything you try to hold in your mind?

Simply scary…